Going analog for 2026 (08/01/2026)

First of all, let me wish everyone reading this (no one) a happy new year. And as the past year has come and passed, this one has to pass the same fate. (I don't know what I've just written. don't ask me what that is i don't care)

What I've wanted to talk about today is the 'trend' of wanting to go analog. I'm pretty sure you've seen at least one post somewhere about it, and I'd say that this trend (or better, sentiment) isn't something new. Personally, I've been feeling like social media has been a hellscape since when almost everyone started thinking that AI is something good, and that has been making me hate social media even more. Maybe, my hate for AI is because I'm an artist and I don't want it to take my job, that I don't have, away.

Such odd things to ask. (28/12/2025)

Hung out with a friend today. She's fun, we've known each other for ten years now, and it was comforting to be together with her today. We talked about stuff, even the ones I've written about here the last time, and she gave me good advice, and I'll probably come out to my mom, one of these days.

As we were minding our business, just strolling together in town, some acquaintaces of mine and hers (both younger than us btw) pass by and want to talk with us. These guys make us go to their car, and won't even get down the car to talk to us (rude). Then, after what everyone asks to an 18yo (what do you want to do after highschool? what university do you wanna go to?) Miss 'I-care-about-everyone's-business-and-won't-mind-mine' asks the same questions to my friend, and bless her innocent heart, she answers honestly to those questions, and Miss decides to laugh at what my friend said. What's so funny about wanting to be a hairdressed or a police officer? Bruh. Then, she has the audacity to ask her if she (my friend) had sex already with her boyfriend. What the hell? Why do you care? Ew. Then she asks me whether *I* got a boyfriend (to which I said nope) and again. Why do you care? You're just coming off as creepy. If she asks a third time (yes, this wasn't the first time we had a conversation like that) I'm just going to tell her "Mi piace la ciola" ("I like pussy") lol. Gotta traumatize them back, right? She also asked if I smoke (I don't) and whether I didn't smoke because my parents didn't want me to. I got a brain, buddy. I don't like smoke anyways, and I'd rather waste my money on Pokémon cards rather than cancer-inducing smoke. Did I say that this girl is like, fifteen? And dating a guy that's probably in his twenties? Well, whatever. Her friend (a guy that acts like a stereotypical gay man, idk whether he's actually gay or not) at least is decent and knows manners. Whatevs. See ya soon, probably in 2026.

Writing songs & gender issues (21/12/2025)

Recently I've decided I wanted to produce at least ONE ong in my life, and I got myself writing. What do I want to write about? While I do not plan on making all my songs like that, I've settled on writing a love song for probably every girl I've ever had a crush on, because they were cool enough for me to get a crush on them.

I still have yet to finish that song, decide what chords I want to use and then the dreadful act of recording it. The thing is, I'm trans. And I quite hate my 'girl' voice, so the recording part of the song has to wait until I can get on HRT and my voice drops (ETA a year and a half from now, if not more) and I STILL have to come out and transition socially. Which still, quite impossible in my current status as I have a (maybe) transphobic mother and a highly judgemental family in general.

I wish I was just born a boy, at times. Like, this would've been all so easy if i was a cis man or at least androgynous enough to pass as the opposite gender. But I guess life has to be unfair, right? Hell, there's this girl I might have a crush on that is straight as a pole, and I have no clue if she sees me as an actual man and not as just some weird autistic butch (?) lesbian (There is NO WAY I'm telling her how I feel. All of the romantic relationships I experienced were no more than to make up for not talking to that person as often as I used to). I want to be just a boring white guy at times, that sounds better to me than being read as a girl by other people, but until that, I guess I'm stuck to fail to play chords on that cranky ass guitar I have since I was 12 or something. Maybe one day I'll share the chords and lyrics to the song I was writing for someone else to sing.

I hate how I look, I'm overweight, my hair is good only for a few hours after washing it, I was gifted a D cup when I am the least person to need it, I got no good wardrobe or sense of style, I don't know how to do makeup and most times I end up wasting my day by being on my computer for countless hours and I get nothing done.

Fuck, I wanted to write something nice.

Animal Crossing: New Leaf hyperfixation era (17/12/2025)

So, in the past few days all I could think about was my ACNL savefile. I NEED to get every critter. I NEED to get every fossil. I NEED to fill out the museum. I NEED to upgrade to the T&T emporium. I NEED to get every perfect fruit. I NEED to get every hybrid flower. (coop spacehey I blame you)

The savefile I'm currently playing in is about eight-ish months old? I've never did any actual progress on it, though UNTIL NOW. Pretendo servers are up for it again (yippee!!) so I've picked the game up again and decided that I wanted to complete it once and for good.

For some reason one of the things I wanted to do was breed flowers and have every hybrid EVER, and a nice-looking town (and not whatever garbage all my past towns were lol) and hopefully I won't lose my savefile (again) for good. Hell, I've even printed a map out of my town to decide on a layout. (I should probably wait until my 10th villager moves in, though, before their house placement messes everything up). I should look into how to layout the town. I think the hardest part is going to where to put everything lol

Update 19/12/2025: I actually figured out some stuff, I might put some pictures here when I get to my laptop. I built the cafe, the new museum, the fence (so my beautiful flowers don't get killed by villagers moving in) and quite a few other stuff. I wanna build the fortune telling shop (no clue if it's actually called that) and I'm trying to get black tulips.